Got milk? I don't...

So, after about 10 days on the baby Zantac I thought that I would be noticing a big difference. While I have noticed some, I was still seeing some of the behaviors that worried me...like pulling on my nipples, crying during and after feedings and waking up in the middle of the night (when only weeks ago he was sleeping through for 9-10 hrs at a time). So...back to the doctor we went. And that's when I figured out the real problem.

When we put him on the scale he had only gained 1 oz in 10 days. Imagine my shock and surprise when I discovered this! I felt like the worst mother in the world. How could my baby not be gaining weight? I feed him regularly, I'm making milk, my breastmilk is supposed to give him everything that he needs, it's supposed to be pefect, it's supposed to be natural and easy. Apparently not so much. What the heck?

My doctor was very encouraging and reassuring. At least Landon isn't one of those babies that really needs to gain a lot of weight. He did start out on the large side. So...the plan? Feed him more, try to increase my milk supply, feed him in the middle of the night as much as he wants *hooray* and supplement with formula if I so desire. Yeah, well...I don't desire to give him formula, but I do desire to give him food and if I'm not making enough then I have to accept that. So I finally had a peace about the whole formula thing and would you believe that Landon REFUSES to take a bottle now?? I've heard this can be a problem with breastfed babies if they haven't been exposed to a bottle before...but he HAS. He took a bottle as recently as last Saturday morning! Why not now? I've tried several different brands of nipples and speeds of flow...to no avail. So, honestly, what do I do when he's emptied both my breasts and looks at me like he's still hungry? What do I do? *sigh* Mothering is the hardest job I have ever had...